Tuesday, April 04, 2006

What a Week!

So many things happened last week that I can’t really keep count.  I felt like I was running around doing “stuff” constantly.  I probably was.
School started again last Tuesday night.  It was so wonderful to be back in class.  Wonderful to get the writing bug again.  To think about my characters and what will happen next.  I was contemplating scraping the whole project and one of my fellow writers game me a hurt look and said, “but what will happen to Jane?” Ha!  She’s become real to people.  If only she would show herself to me a little more clearly…I think it might be the name, it might be too plain!
The new digs at the office are new digs.  I’ve decided to become floor captain for the emergency response team.  I’m not exactly sure WHY this is so important to me, but it is.  I feel like I am getting pulled by something to take charge of this particular thing.  I’m now CPR and First Aid certified again.  I have been talking to people about emergency situations, safe refuge and emergency supplies, what should happen during and after an emergency situation and so on.  It’s really strange.  I’ve never really felt like I should be in this kind of position before, I’ve always been willing to follow the leader.  This time I felt compelled to become that leader. 
I’ve also been feeling the urge to pull in a little.  Into myself.  I keep getting caught in these situations where a lot is going on and I almost feel as though it is too much for me.  Noise, conversations, light, music, it’s all too much.  I want to experience things, I want to get to know people better, I want to be part of the team, but at the moment I can’t stand the disruption!  I want peace and quiet and silence.  I think I am longing for a little self reflection and I haven’t given it to myself in awhile.  Instead I just keep pushing forward.  Now everything in me is saying “stop”!  So with the exception of getting the invitations ordered for the wedding, I am thinking nothing else should happen this week.  I don’t know that I could handle it!