Saturday, November 04, 2006

That seasonal thing

It’s call Seasonal Affective Disorder – or SAD.  I had it pretty bad the first year I moved here and mom purchased some full spectrum lights for me to sit under once a day.  Last year I did pretty good and didn’t have to use the lights at all.
This year I am not so lucky.  I realized last night that I was getting severely depressed.  I was starting to cry at often for no apparent reason.  Yes things are not going well at work – but plenty of other things are trucking along in my favor and I should concentrate on those.  Instead, I had started to despair in all arenas of life.  This week I wasn’t even creative enough to get the simplest things done – emailing friends seemed like a huge task.  Heck, even sitting on the couch and watching TV felt like a huge task. 
Last night I’d finally had enough.  I was standing at the bus stop, the rain was starting to come down again, it was pitch black outside and traffic was horrible.  Hubby was already home playing games with his friend and I was out in the weather, waiting to get home.  It sucked.  But what sucked even more was my attitude.  I had chosen to go to the gym, needed to.  It wasn’t that late, only 5:30.  It wasn’t cold, and the rain wasn’t coming down that hard.  I was just feeling sorry for myself.
When I got home we dug out the full spectrum lights and I sat in front of them for about 45 minutes.  I immediately felt better and my attitude has improved 100% today.  I’m not completely back to my cheerful self, but I am on my way!
Yeah for full spectrum lights in winter time!