Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Realizations

Yesterday was an amazing day.  I took and passed a test I had been contemplating for years.  A huge achievement.
And today I went back to the same old job, doing the same old support work that I have been loathing for months.  Yuck.

A few weeks ago, on one of those nights where I just couldn’t sleep, I watched an older Oprah show.  This show was all about what to do to improve your job.  When I saw it - I immediately downloaded the course in iTunes for later listening.  I’d already decided that starting the day after I took the test I was going to start making changes in my life to both figure out what I want career wise and how to make myself a happier, healthier person.

So today I started listening, and completing the workbook online. 
And you know what?  I figured something out.  Already, only a few hours after listening to the first snippet of information about this subject, I figured something out.
I love writing, I want to write more than anything.  And writing is the one thing I never feel like I have time to do. 
Why is that?
Because I am too wrapped up in things that aren’t my passion.  Duh!

I got to thinking - what’s my current routine?
I wake up, get ready for work, go to work and spend 9 to 10 hours everyday working.  I often skip lunch and end up eating at my desk.  I am often running out the door to make it to some commitment after work.  I feel rushed and tired at night and the last thing I want to do is write.  Mostly, I just want to spend time with Hubby and crash out after a long day.

Then I thought - when I am most awake, thinking most about life and most inspired to write?
Why - that would be first thing in the morning.

So, um, why don’t I get up, get ready for work, head to work but instead of GO to work, I go to write?  Why not take an hour or so every morning and write about what ever comes to me to write?  I wouldn’t need a laptop - I could do all my first draft stuff long hand and then type it up on the weekends.

Sometimes it takes a little while for the light-bulb to come on.  But the light is usually pretty bright when it does