Friday, December 07, 2007

Nothing to Say

I’m having a hard time blogging lately.
It’s not for want of activity - it’s because I feel like I have to sensor what I say here.  I can’t write exactly what I want.  I have editors who don’t want to know certain things, or feel I shouldn’t express certain opinions or feelings here.
And I just want to curse at them.  At you.
This was supposed to be a site for me - to express myself.  But it feels like I have to constantly put down just the good things, the happy things, or the reaction is huge.
I’m human.  I have feelings, I hurt some days and some days I hurt others.  That’s part of life. 
And I want this to be about my life - not some make believe happy existence that, well, doesn’t exist. 
I don’t know what to do at the moment.  So I might not be around for awhile - until I get it figured out.