Thursday, October 04, 2007

Last Night

Last night I did something terrifying and amazing.
Last night - for the very first time - I performed belly dance in front of people BY MYSELF.
I don’t think I have ever been so scared of anything in my life.  I was on the verge of tears for hours before it happened.  Right before it happened my stomach lurched and I thought I was going to be sick.  When I stepped into the middle of the floor and my entire body would not stop shaking, I thought it was all over.  I almost fell 3 times, I was shaking so badly. 
But I did it.  I got through it.  I danced in front of my class, by myself. 
And now?  Now I want to cry tears of joy and relief.  I DID IT!  Somehow I managed to push through the fear and dance for almost 5 minutes. 
The utterly best part of all of this?  I never have to dance for the first time again.  The next time will be just that, the next time.