Monday, July 16, 2007

I’m Crafty

This weekend I spent approximately 18 hours crafting. I finished 2 projects and am almost complete with the third.  I would have finished the third if I’d been thinking a little more clearly about what I was trying to do, but that’s okay. 
These projects are things that have been on my “back burner” for most of the summer.  Nagging little projects that take a lot of time and craftiness, but things I really wanted to do.  Now I’ve got 2, maybe 3, projects left and I’m feeling really good about the possibility of completing all of them!

I was planning on getting my resume updated this weekend and doing more soul searching about the job I really want.  Instead I spent the weekend watching movies, my favorite TV shows and crafting.  Giving myself a REAL break from the frantic pace I was setting in looking for something new.  I have to say that I am feeling a lot better about not getting the job.  I thought I really wanted it, but I didn’t.  I really want to change what I am doing, but I also know that I want to lead.  I want to take ownership of my work and be responsible for it.  I don’t want others telling me what to do; I don’t want to be an admin anymore. 

Not getting the job is a huge blessing.  Being constantly turned down over these past few months gave me the time I needed to really get a handle on myself.  I feel like I am getting closer to truly being ready to take on something bigger.

The best part about all of this – the nightmares have stopped.  I’ve had horrendous nightmares for the last two weeks.  People were dying, planes were crashing, people were getting lost, I was even shot a few times.  Horrible, wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat kind of dreams.  The kind that keep you up for hours afterward and affect the whole next day. 
Since Thursday night I’ve had nothing but pleasant dreams.  A coincidence?  I think not…