Monday, January 09, 2006

I did it

I finally did it.  The one thing I have been attempting NOT to do for weeks, okay months now.  I’ve blown up at my co-worker for missing work. 
I know that I should not have done this, which is why I have been working for months on not saying anything.  But today I lost it.  Today was the last straw.
There was a project we were supposed to work on together.  I took a bunch of pictures and she was supposed to help me reformat them for a document she was creating.  I took the pictures Friday morning and thought we had agreed that she would help me finish the process that afternoon. 
But she left. 
I got back from lunch and she was packing up and left. 
I asked my boss what to do, I had a ton of work to do and I wanted to her to do what she said she would do, which was help me.  My boss told me to leave it.  So I did.  I thought nothing more of until this morning.
This morning when she stood at my desk demanding to know when I would have the work done.  Not only demanding, but raising her voice and accusing me of using her being out of the office as an excuse to not do my work and make her look bad. 
So I lost it. 
I lost it in front of the boss too. 
I feel bad – in a way – but then again I don’t.  She’s been missing so much work that everything has been getting dumped on me.  I’m now over loaded and something had to give somewhere.  It just happened to be my temper. 
Now she’s not speaking to me, but I don’t feel so bad because I don’t really want to talk to her.  What I really want is for her to show up to work and be a team player.