Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Conflicted

I am so angry.  I want nothing more than just to move on.  To move into my new position as quickly as possible.  It’s been a week and a half.  If I were leaving the company I would be gone on Friday!  Instead I am hanging out for another week, waiting for my sentence to be over.
My manager is out all week with his broken leg.  That isn’t stopping him from attempting to keep me longer, to increase my workload before I go.  He told me today that he wants me to hold two more training sessions next week.  Next week!  Normally I plan these things 3 to 4 weeks in advance, giving me plenty of time to find a room, get the materials together and schedule the people.  And he wants two next week.  Not to mention that it’s a 4 day week for us AND I have tons of stuff to transition to my teammates who have refused to do any sort of transitioning so far.
I bet he’s thinking he’ll just “call me in” to do some training sessions until they get someone to do it.  The problem with that?  Well, it’s threefold.  One, I will have a new job and they are expecting me to be very busy.  Two, my current team is already moving on - one of my teammates has even stopped listening to anything I say because I am a “short timer.” Three, well, I just don’t care.  I don’t care that they have people who need training.  I don’t care about the enhancements to the system and “selling” what we do.  I just don’t care to do that job anymore.  I haven’t cared for a few months now and I am going to care even less in another two weeks when I am onto something new. 
I know the ol manager is just being as jerky as he can be.  This is just added to all the things he has said and done over the past few months.  I really shouldn’t be surprised by his actions - he wants to get as much out of me as possible before I go because - what will they do when I am gone?  The truth is - they will be just fine.  I don’t matter in the big picture.  I am only one person and they can find someone to replace me.  Others might have to work a little harder than they are used to (truthfully they should have been working harder from the beginning.) But I am replaceable.  I have always been replaceable at work.  I’ve never left a job and had the company fold. 
I just want them to give up and let me go!!!
7 days and counting…