Thursday, September 11, 2008
Forest in the City
Down at our local “park” which actaully has a small forest with lots of trails to walk around on. It’s quiet, beautiful and mesmerizing.
Update
Right.
So I haven’t blogged in awhile. Some of that has to do with the fact that I’m working two projects at work, meaning I have to work at work. By the time I get home I want to sit and relax, usually with a good book.
Some of my lack of blogging comes from the fact that I’ve been doing a TON of soul searching these past few months. I’ve been listening to self help books, reading self help books, thinking about how I can help myself. And when I say “self help” I’m talking about my soul. I’m talking about my well being as a person, how I think and react to situations. How I express myself as a human. Really, I’m trying to reprogram my brain.
I’ve always attempted to be a positive thinker, but I get in these ruts of unhappiness where all I see is the ugly, brutal side of life. I start thinking negative thoughts that compound to create negative experiences and it’s a slippery slope once you start down that path.
I’ve been working to concentrate on what I am grateful for, everything from the sun rising in the sky, to the fact that we have weather. Any weather. I’m grateful to be alive and I’ve been keeping a journal of all the things I’m grateful for everyday. With the concentration on being grateful, I’ve also taken to watching how I interact with people. What I say to them, how I react to them and how they react to me. It’s important to know the effect I have on other people and how they effect me. I realized that I was adding to chaos around me. I realized that I was NOT calm, I was feeding off of other’s stresses and making them my own. I’ve been working to change that. Working really hard to stop gossiping, to stop propagating the crap that people talk about at work. I’ve been concentrating on what I am here for, my job. Surprising how simple life becomes when you drop all the gossip, you drop all the drama and just show up to do your job.
Along with dropping the drama at work, I’ve also been working to drop work when I am not there. I’ve been taking my commuting time seriously, using it to meditate my work day away and let those things go. I am drawing a very important line for myself, my job is my job and not my life. It’s been hard to do this, and I still struggle sometimes, but really I don’t want my life to be about my work. I want something more…
I’ve been dancing a lot; I’ve been gathering creative items for the Winter. I’ve got projects lined up that will take me through till Spring, which is really exciting. Most of them have to do with the house. A lot of them involve painting, which makes me SO excited. I love painting. Painting rooms, painting pictures, furniture, just about everything. I’ve found that if I can do it in my own time, my own way, I love it. I find it calming and rewarding. It’s only when others attempt to force me into what they want, their timing and such that it isn’t so fun for me. But I don’t mind doing it alone. I enjoy it!
That’s what I’ve been up to. Working hard at work and playing hard at home. Thinking about how I think and what I want my life to look like. Concentrating on being kind to other people and not propagating the senseless drama that doesn’t do anyone any good. Most of all – being grateful that I am alive and I get to see the things I get to see every morning.
I’m a lucky woman.
Saturday, September 06, 2008
Out at the Park
Hubby, his buddy Travis and I headed down to Seward Park for some late evening sun and fresh air.
Shelves!
Hubby put in some shelves in the laundry room this morning, aren’t they wonderful? I think so!
Huge!
Last weekend, after an hour of back and forth, I convinced Hubby to go bed shopping with me. One of the local bed sellers was having a really good sale and it was time for us to get a bigger, better bed.
It was actually a very pleasant experience as we were the only customers in a fairly new store no one really knew about. The sales
guy talked us through our purchase, letting us know all the options. Hubby and I agreed on one bed pretty quickly and we were out of the shop in about an hour.
The bed was delivered last night and it is HUGE. It’s also firm, totally comforable and wonderful. It’s a Beautyrest with the individually wrapped coils. Which means Hubby can roll around as much as he wants and I don’t feel a thing.
I’m looking forward to many more peaceful nights. 
As you wake in the morning
What do you feel?
Does a rush of happiness
wash over you when,
Suddenly, you realize you are alive?
