Friday, April 04, 2008
I heart cherries
Especially when they are drenched in tequilla…
1/2 inch
I’ve been feeling rather fat for awhile and the trip to Florida brought my weight into sharp focus. Looking at some of the pictures, I felt a sense of disappointment in myself that I’ve not felt for a long time.
It was time for a change.
I started thinking about diets, diet pills and the like. Then I saw an ad on TV for a new show ”I can make you thin.” I decided to record the series and the first night it was on Hubby was in the other room, so I started watching it live.
Hubby came in the room as it was starting and sat down to watch it with me. He never questioned what we were watching, just listened along with me.
It seemed pretty simple. The show gave us 4 tenants to live by:
1. Eat when you are hungry
2. Eat what you want
3. Each consciously
4. Stop when you are full
We decided to go for it. What could we lose?
The first show was 3 weeks ago. Last night I had to tighten the safety strap on my weight belt for belly dance class by 1/2 inch.
I think it’s working…
Thursday, April 03, 2008
Looking up…Again
I was feeling angry and frustrated about my job this week. I finally had a meeting with my boss and told her that I did not want to do what I had been doing anymore. I don’t like being a secretary and I wanted something challenging.
She had no idea I was still working on the stuff I was working on. Apparently the other PMs I have been supporting were told before my return that I was rolling off and they were to support themselves. They didn’t mention this to me. Gr. Shame on them!
I’d already started pushing back on their requests, this gives me more ammunition to push back more.
Plus, the new PM I am working with is wonderful. She gives me work to do, actual PM deliverables! I’m creating a schedule for the first time. I’m working on a resource plan and org chart. And she has faith that I will get these things completed for her!
I have faith in my boss, I really do. I am realizing that I need to communicate with her more often when I am feeling frustrated.
If she can fix it, she will.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
The Joke is on Who?
April 1, 2008
To: Boss
Subject: Roadmap to my future
Dear Boss –
I’m not so sure that things are working out for me here. A couple of things have happened to lead me to this conclusion.
1. Though I believe in being “professional” I also believe in acting, on occasion, like a 2 year old. I like making bad, though harmless, jokes. I also like making funny faces. And I can’t seem to help the fact that I like to stick my tongue out at people. Yes we are all adults. Does that really mean we need to act like “adults” all the time? And yes, I have A LOT of toys at my desk. It gives me something to look at when I’m bored.
2. I’m bored. Though you may think all of this is an excellent learning opportunity for me, I have to tell you that I have been playing the same role for over 7 years. Wait, make that 8. Since today is my 6th year anniversary here, I get to add another year to the total number of years I’ve been doing practically the SAME THING. There is a reason I am good at it.
3. I fear when I said I wanted “accountability” you heard that I wanted “accounting.” Please note: I do not want to do more accounting for the various projects I am not leading. Yes, I can do accounting, but as I am not Accountable for projects I am not leading I don’t care to do their accounting. If we’re all supposed to “be professional” then I think the “professionals” should do their own stupid accounting. It’s not that hard. They make really easy spreadsheets and all you have to do is fill in the information.
4. I’m still bored.
Though there is nothing I can do at the moment to change my situation, I just wanted you to know it might not work out. I’m going to get my certification at the end of the month. Hopefully I’ll get a new house by the end of the summer. Then, well, we’ll see if I don’t decide to get a new boss and, perhaps, a new job as well. Until then, yeah, I’m still bored.
Cheers!
As you wake in the morning
What do you feel?
Does a rush of happiness
wash over you when,
Suddenly, you realize you are alive?
