Wednesday, October 10, 2007
I Survived!
I have survived yet another harrowing trip to Pullman for Homecoming. Ha! This year Hubby’s brother and wife came up from CA. It was really nice to see the both of them, even for just a weekend. They met at WSU, so they did a fair amount of reminiscing. It was cute to see them together; they would get this look in their eyes like they were sharing a common memory.
My friend is doing well. She is set to graduate in May. Being over in Pullman is starting to wear on her a bit. I honestly don’t know how she is doing it. I would have a difficult time taking myself out of the working world to go to school full time, especially in a place where the average age is 18 to 23. Her grades are amazing and she’s applying for graduate school. She wants to go to Denver University and I really hope she gets in. I think Denver would agree with her.
The weekend was full of laughter, singing and drinking. We put our favorite songs on the jukebox in one bar and had the whole place singing along at one point. We also sang our way home, sitting in the back of a pick-up truck. It was fun.
I’m on my last week at work. I’ve already started reading materials for the new group. The new managers are both out of the office this week, so no new assignments. It’s good to have something to do, though, as my old group has decided to give me the cold shoulder. If I didn’t have the reading for the new group I would have nothing to do!
Friday, October 05, 2007
Pullman Here I COME!
We’re off to Pullman for Washington State’s homecoming. We’re fairly certain the cougars are going to lose (it seems to be tradition) but that’s not going to stop the good times!
One of my very good friends moved back to Pullman a year ago to finish up her degree. We visited her for homecoming last year and had a blast – so we’re doing a repeat this year. Hubby’s brother and sister-in-law are coming up as well. It should be a ton of fun.
We’re heading over to Pullman tonight and coming back on Sunday. We’re off work on Monday – so we have plenty of time to recuperate from the festivities.
Work Front: Nothing is happening. Work is at a standstill due to technical difficulties. I’m 85% complete with my transition. I’ve written the new managers asking them to start giving me something to do. If they don’t, next week might be a VERY long week of sitting around and waiting.
Plus…Mom? I love you. I’m sorry I’ve been short on the phone lately; I just don’t want to talk about work when I am at work. It’s too quiet here and people listen to everything. I just can’t be chatty like I used to…
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Last Night
Last night I did something terrifying and amazing.
Last night - for the very first time - I performed belly dance in front of people BY MYSELF.
I don’t think I have ever been so scared of anything in my life. I was on the verge of tears for hours before it happened. Right before it happened my stomach lurched and I thought I was going to be sick. When I stepped into the middle of the floor and my entire body would not stop shaking, I thought it was all over. I almost fell 3 times, I was shaking so badly.
But I did it. I got through it. I danced in front of my class, by myself.
And now? Now I want to cry tears of joy and relief. I DID IT! Somehow I managed to push through the fear and dance for almost 5 minutes.
The utterly best part of all of this? I never have to dance for the first time again. The next time will be just that, the next time.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
6 days left
I can’t wait to get out of this group. The management oversight, or lack there of, is driving me batty.
By the way - I figured out all the crazy training mess. I won’t be giving any extra training next week, which is really good because I’ve booked myself extra long lunches every day. Priorites!
Anyway, there seems to be some big re-org going to happen. In this place, that really isn’t a big deal. We have them ALL THE TIME. But, because the boss man is out of the office, every one refuses to tell us what’s changing. Which has caused the rumor mill to start chugging at a mad pace. When I asked someone about the rumor they attempted to tell me it was all a lie they told for some reason or other. Aurgh.
I was concerned because I thought I might have gotten someone in trouble. I needn’t have been worried, I was the last to know.
Regardless, the lack of real communication from the “leaders” in this group is crazy. People don’t really care what’s happening as long as they know. We’ve all dealt with change many times before and there’s only one person on the team that goes nuts. (but she IS nuts so...)
I’ll be glad to move onto new drama and outrage.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Conflicted
I am so angry. I want nothing more than just to move on. To move into my new position as quickly as possible. It’s been a week and a half. If I were leaving the company I would be gone on Friday! Instead I am hanging out for another week, waiting for my sentence to be over.
My manager is out all week with his broken leg. That isn’t stopping him from attempting to keep me longer, to increase my workload before I go. He told me today that he wants me to hold two more training sessions next week. Next week! Normally I plan these things 3 to 4 weeks in advance, giving me plenty of time to find a room, get the materials together and schedule the people. And he wants two next week. Not to mention that it’s a 4 day week for us AND I have tons of stuff to transition to my teammates who have refused to do any sort of transitioning so far.
I bet he’s thinking he’ll just “call me in” to do some training sessions until they get someone to do it. The problem with that? Well, it’s threefold. One, I will have a new job and they are expecting me to be very busy. Two, my current team is already moving on - one of my teammates has even stopped listening to anything I say because I am a “short timer.” Three, well, I just don’t care. I don’t care that they have people who need training. I don’t care about the enhancements to the system and “selling” what we do. I just don’t care to do that job anymore. I haven’t cared for a few months now and I am going to care even less in another two weeks when I am onto something new.
I know the ol manager is just being as jerky as he can be. This is just added to all the things he has said and done over the past few months. I really shouldn’t be surprised by his actions - he wants to get as much out of me as possible before I go because - what will they do when I am gone? The truth is - they will be just fine. I don’t matter in the big picture. I am only one person and they can find someone to replace me. Others might have to work a little harder than they are used to (truthfully they should have been working harder from the beginning.) But I am replaceable. I have always been replaceable at work. I’ve never left a job and had the company fold.
I just want them to give up and let me go!!!
7 days and counting…
As you wake in the morning
What do you feel?
Does a rush of happiness
wash over you when,
Suddenly, you realize you are alive?
