Thursday, September 13, 2007
Updates
Another round of interviews is completed.
I’ve just finished interviewing for 4 more positions. Two of which I don’t want anything to do with, one I really want and one I would be okay with, at least in the short term.
I ended up interviewing for a Marketing position - I wasn’t pre-screened for it or I might not have wasted their time. It was the most uncomfortable interview I have ever had. When I arrived three perfectly groomed and coiffed ladies were waiting outside a conference room for me. They all looked me up and down and, ever so slightly, turned their noses up. We then proceeded to the interview where we spent 40 minutes discussing mostly them with a little bit of me.
Um, yeah. Not so much on that front. I kind of wish the woman I knew in that department had not been out of the office so I could have found out a little more before proceeding to the interview.
The position I really want is with a fairly stable group that has been working together for awhile. I know a few of them and would like to work with them again/more. I have no idea how I did in the interviews or if they will even consider me for the position. I guess I will see what happens.
Something rather odd happened today.
I had a one on one with my manager who informed me that Tiny is looking to leave his position (no surprise since he sucks at it and is probably afraid it is starting to show.) He then told me that they are thinking, as a management team, that I might be the perfect fit to move into Tiny’s position. Huh. Talking about it briefly, Mgr said they would move me into his position and backfill my current role. They would give me a job title change to get me into the career family I want to be in. And, if any future projects came up, I would be the project manager for those.
I’m not really sure how to feel about this. It’s all contingent on Tiny leaving the role and I don’t know how likely that is, considering his obvious failings as a performer. It is something I will have to ponder since, until now, the door has been closed to me.
So, yeah, that’s the update. I should be hearing about the positions I interviewed for in the next week or so. We’ll see what happens!
Friday, September 07, 2007
Hopeful
I’ve runt he gamut on feelings this week. From feeling like no one will hire me to feeling like I might have a good chance at having a new position in the next month. From being rejected to the 10th time to having 4 hiring managers asking for more information.
Next week is going to be busy – so far I have 6 interviews scheduled for 2 days. And I am in class for 2 days as well!
Cross your fingers – one of these has to work out!
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Pushing Back
After careful consideration I’ve decided to push back.
I wrote Tiny and notified him that I would not be doing his work for him. I decided to do this after a conversation I had with another coworker who is also working with Tiny. Apparently Tiny is “so busy” with the work I am doing that he cannot help this other coworker with her stuff. I figure, if that’s what he’s saying than it might as well be so!
That, and I am pretty tired of digging the man out of holes. I don’t need to make him successful when all he does is try to sink me. I’m through with that.
I’ve also decided on a new strategy for getting around my bad-mouthing manager. Personal References.
Why I didn’t think of this before, I really don’t know. Normally this is something you always do when looking for a job. I think people prefer not to provide this type of stuff, but with my manager being not so pleasant…well it will only help in the long run.
I had another interview today and mentioned personal references to the hiring manager. He got so excited I thought he was going to jump up and down. Like I’d gotten him a really great gift or something.
We’ll see how this one goes…
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
10 Down - can we make it an even dozen?
I got rejection number 10 today, officially number 10. I knew it was coming as the requisition was closed on Tuesday when I got back into work. But hearing it for sure from the recruiter was a bit of a blow.
When I really think about it, I was kind of counting on this one. They had me interview with three different groups, really lengthy interviews too. The recruiter had called my boss for more information about me. And though he recounted the conversation, and he said some not very good things about me, I still thought I had it. I am, after all, more than qualified for what they wanted.
I didn’t get it though.
I am trying really hard to be positive about the situation. More opportunities will come, hopefully better ones. But...it’s really hard to be positive with a constant string of rejection. Especially with the way my manager is treating me at work - like I have personally wronged him. Like changing my mind was a dagger in his back (after working many, many hours of OT to get the work done with little to no recognition from him, I probably should have stabbed him in the back...) I have continued to work hard, not complaining that I get nothing but shit work to do. Not complaining that Tiny, who has no idea what he is doing, keeps getting touted as a great PM. Attempting to keep my chin up by thinking it won’t last too much longer…
But with my own manager saying not so nice things about me...I’m not sure that I will ever get out.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Bad?
Is it bad that, only two hours back at work, I am already planning my next vacation?
I should say vacations, because I am planning many mini vacations through-out the rest of the year. I can only hope that these keep me sane while I continue job hunting.
Vacation was wonderful. Days and days of satisfying my Harry Potter addiction by reading book 7 not once, but twice. Taking naps, eating amazing food, reading, playing video games with Hubby. We thought about taking a couple “mini-trips” here and there, but every morning we looked at each other and decided to go back to bed. It was sunny and we spent some time outside. We played with the cats, I went shopping, we listened to music. It was a wonderful week.
Now I’m back at work. I’m back to avoiding people that drive me crazy and searching for a new position. I could actually feel the tension building in my shoulders at we rode the bus into work. Not even halfway through my day and I can feel my teeth wanting to grind together as my jaw clenches in frustration.
I guess I will just keep thinking about the next reprieve from the office…it isn’t soon enough!
As you wake in the morning
What do you feel?
Does a rush of happiness
wash over you when,
Suddenly, you realize you are alive?
