Monday, April 30, 2007
I miss them already
There is never enough time…
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Guess Who’s Here?
That would be my Grandparents!
They drove out from sunny Colorado to pay a visit to the cloudy Northwest. The weather isn’t letting them down a bit! We’ve got clouds, we’ve got rain, and we’ve got a chill in the air. We don’t have wind (yet) so at least there is that.
But they are here! I’m so excited to see them. They are staying with my mom and tomorrow Hubby and I are getting up bright and early to drive to her house. We’re going to have breakfast and hang out and then the Grandparents are coming to Ballard.
We’ve got a few dining choices picked out for lunch and I am hoping for a little sunshine tomorrow as I am thinking of taking them to the Ballard Locks for a stroll. I love the locks, they are so calming and peaceful and at the same time bustling with crazy boating activity.
It’s going to be a fun day!
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Fate Forced my Hand
Right. So I have been dreading telling my manager that I am looking for another job. Dreading to the point that I haven’t told him.
Until this morning. This morning I opened my email to see the magic form that has to be signed by my manager before I can start interviewing for a new position.
There is was. Waiting.
Internally I freaked out. My stomach started churning, I felt flush, sick and excited at the same time. Excited because – yay an interview! Sick because now I had no choice but to tell my manager that I am no longer willing or wanting to work for him.
It went okay. He was shocked, a little confused and kind of sad. But underneath all of that was instant relief. At least I am pretty sure that was what I saw in his eyes.
Now I’m just waiting for the recruiter to set something up between the hiring manager and me. Soon, soon I will be on a new adventure!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Go Team!
This and That
Hubby shaved off his beard last night. It’s really weird to see him. He looks so different.
Kickball has been fun. Though we’ve lost all our games so far, this team has to be the best I’ve ever been on. There are plenty of people who want to play AND we’re losing by less each time. We actually got 2 runs this last week!
Parade classes start in 2 weeks. Yay!
I’m on the hunt for a new job again. This time I have a definite plan for where I’d like to go and what I’d like to do. This is an entirely different place from anywhere I’ve ever been. Usually I just let life take me a long, but this time I know what I want to do. Now it’s just a matter of getting out of the current position and moving into something new.
With the decision to change comes a dilemma. Do I tell my boss that I want a change before I put the transfer request in front of him? Part of me thinks it would be fair for me to do this. But a big part of me doesn’t want to face what ever flack he might give me until I am fully prepared for it. I have a good feeling that he and the other managers would attempt to keep me on the team, taking over someone else’s position. Specifically Tiny’s position. And I know there is a ton of clean up involved with that spot. Tiny is not good at what he’s doing. To be fair it is not something he wanted to do or has ever been trained to do. It’s just what he’s ended up doing. The fact remains, I don’t want it. I want something else.
If I don’t tell my manager this will come as a huge surprise to him. He thinks that I am happily going down the path he has set out for me. He really has no clue that I face the future he has set out for me with a kind of deep seated dread that I haven’t felt since I took a Learn to Row class. I was miserable on a level that I couldn’t even recognize.
Aurgh. I’ve got time to decide, since there are no offers on the table yet. But the decision will have to be made soon or it will be made for me…
As you wake in the morning
What do you feel?
Does a rush of happiness
wash over you when,
Suddenly, you realize you are alive?
