Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Latest Goal
Hubby started putting stars on his calendar every time he went to the gym.
Thinking that was a great idea – I purchased some WILD ANIMAL stickers for myself. These wild animals include various cats, dogs and fish, so I am not sure how they are WILD, but I’ll take them regardless. I think my favorite might be the hamster.
Regardless – my new goal is to fill at least half the days on my calendar with happy WILD ANIMALs. I’ve got 13 stickers so far and two days left this month.
I’m thinking this month I’ll make it!
Monday, February 26, 2007
Cookies
I want a cookie.
Right now, nothing sounds better to me than a chocolate, chocolate chip cookie.
I’m blaming the Mt. Dew we had with lunch. I haven’t had a Mt. Dew in…probably a year or so. In fact I can’t even remember the last soda I had.
Oh wait. I did have a cream soda about 6 weeks ago.
This is very unlike the old me. I was telling hubby, after a sip of sweet refreshing Mt. Dew, that I used to drink a can in the morning while eating a package of chocolate glazed donuts. They really made the perfect combination. And I used to run around, completely sugared and caffeinated all morning long, I’d get tons of work done. Of course the crash in the afternoon was terrible, I’d be almost asleep at my desk, or walking back to the vending machine to get another fix. But that initial sugary caffeinated rush was the best.
Almost like right now…I just need a cookie.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Weekend of Wonders
The Secret
A few weeks ago I got a cryptic message from one of my friends. It said simply, “Have you seen The Secret?”
I had no idea what she was talking about, so she sent me a little more information. I looked it up online and ordered the book. In the process of ordering this book I also ordered 3 others and when they arrived I started with the other, forgetting about The Secret.
Then, last week on Oprah, there was an entire special on The Secret. I found myself getting sucked in and very interested in people’s stories.
The more I listened, the more I found that what they were saying is exactly how Hubby lives his life. He has been teaching me, over the last few years, how to change my thinking as well. It has been slow going, changing some of my negative thinking into positive and focusing on the wonderful things in life instead of the bad things.
After watching the show I decided two things:
1. I would make a concerted effort to live positively
2. I would read the book I had bought
The Power of the Positive
Hubby has a co-worker whose wife has been battling cancer. It’s been a pretty gruesome battle and she has been suffering in some for years. She took a turn for the worse when they took a recent trip to Arizona. She’s now been in the hospital for almost a month.
Hubby’s workplace decided to start taking meals to the hospital for those who cannot leave her bedside. Hubby and I signed up for Sunday.
We got everything ready and mentally prepared ourselves for the worst. Since we’ve both lost people to cancer, we know a little about what people go through. Every situation is different, but we can empathize.
We arrived at the hospital and found the room. The woman has been heavily drugged and was asleep like we expected her to be. We spent a hour or so chatting with Hubby’s co-worker and the mother-in-law who were there. We spent most of the time outside of the room, but went back just before we left.
Hubby went to introduce himself to the woman. As soon as he picked up her hand she opened her eyes. She seemed to respond to his overwhelming positive energy. It was absolutely amazing. She was “awake” for a minute or so and then slowly drifted back to sleep. Hubby and I were deeply touched by the situation and we hope the best for the family.
I can only think that it was Hubby’s positive power that gave her a boost while we were there. He does his best to constantly remain on the up and up, even in the worst situations. He can be amazing.
Re-arrange Everything
Not only were my thoughts beginning to re-arrange themselves this weekend, Hubby decided we should also re-arrange the apartment. We spent the entire day yesterday cleaning and re-arranging every room, which the exception of the bedroom. The transformation was amazing and I think we both really like the new layout of things. I am starting to see possibilities with our space that I had not thought of before.
All I can say is “bring on the change!” I feel like I’m ready.
Friday, February 16, 2007
3 am
It’s three in the morning. I’ve been up at 3 most mornings lately. That seems to be when my restless mind wakes up and starts working on things.
Things like, work, life, my future.
Do I like my job? What am I going to do about the latest bit of strife? Will I somehow be able to get all my work done even though more work keeps coming my way? What will I do in April when we go steady state and I have to deal with Tiny as a Release Manager?
Do I even care?
It’s the last question that really has me wondering. I keep feeling like I should be doing something else, but I am really not sure what that is. I search the want ads, to just see if there is something that catches my eye, if by chance I will run across that something that will tell me. I keep my eyes open, would I want to be doing this or that job? With limited exposure to the world I wonder what is really out there.
Then the question of my hobbies comes into the picture. I am still working on the novel I started almost two years ago. Two years! How did that happen? And how can it be two years later and all I have is 4 sketchy chapters?
Though I have to say those 4 chapters are better than anything I wrote while taking the writing classes. I got some good ideas and good direction – but I certainly work better on my own – at least where the rough draft is concerned.
I started Belly dance again last night. It was almost like going back home. The same people where there, some looking slightly different, others looking exactly the same. I fell into rank around the teacher and though I am a little rusty in my moves, it all came back pretty quickly. I wondered why I had left. I KNOW why, don’t get me wrong, but I wondered at myself for giving up something.
And it got me thinking – what else have I given up?
I’m not feeling morbid about life; I’m not feeling sad either. I’m just feeling…contemplative. I know that life is what you make of it and you should follow your passion and really try to do what makes you happy. I’m just not sure what that is. And maybe I’m not supposed to know just yet. But that doesn’t mean I’m not going to try to figure it out.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Happy Hour?
In an effort to celebrate a huge accomplishment in my group, I organized a happy hour. I invited my whole group. Thankfully I scheduled it the same night as Hubby’s bi-weekly happy hour, so I wouldn’t have to sit alone waiting for people to show up, because only three people showed. I had mentally decided that I wouldn’t be doing that again. That was two weeks ago.
My boss found out about Hubby’s happy hour and got all excited. He informed my group that I would be setting up a happy hour for all of them to attend. Putting my better judgment aside, I asset up the happy hour and sent out the invite. I also sent a reminder.
Only my boss showed up.
I don’t work with drinkers. We have a couple here and there, but mostly I work with very sober people with families that want to go home at night. I don’t blame them, if I had kids I’d want to be home with them too. I’m not sure how long I will have to keep the happy hour going before I am allowed to give up.
Of course, this does allow me to spend more time with my husband and his co-workers since they are very good about showing up!
As you wake in the morning
What do you feel?
Does a rush of happiness
wash over you when,
Suddenly, you realize you are alive?
