Wednesday, February 22, 2006
The Calm Before the Storm
Things have been very calm at work. Too calm. I’m half expecting a storm to hit at any moment considering how everything has been working here. It seems to come in cycles, and those cycles seem to rotate around one person. I was feeling like I was the cause of the cycles, that perhaps I was goading her into the storms she was creating. But after the blow-up I have been paying a little more attention. It seemed very important to sit back and watch. So I have been.
I’ve realized a couple of things during this interlude. One, she may blow at any moment. Any extra amount of pressure or stress that is not known or expected can push her over the edge. It’s a long drop for her and she’ll take you with her if you are anywhere near. Second, when she said she would no longer help a group within our department she meant it. I’m absolutely amazed that anyone would do such a thing like REFUSE to work for a manager in the department, but that is what she has chosen. She refuses to the point of almost making him look bad. If I hadn’t caught on, it might have been a very bad situation. I did it for him, not for her, but I am still amazed at her actions.
Watching what she has been doing, how she has been acting, has been a bit of a wakeup call for me. I have been very emotional in this department. I have been emotional since my last semi-manager beat me up pretty badly. But I am safe here, for the most part. My managers don’t beat me up emotionally, they aren’t asking me to be super woman. They want me to help them succeed just as much as I want to help them. I just need to give up the wounds I’ve had before and get on with work.
I’m hoping to avoid the storm when it hits next time. I have been doing my best to distance myself from her and take assignments that leave us in different camps. The last thing I want is to be caught up in something yet again and get dinged for it in my review. I want the storms to be hers and hers alone.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
It’s Valentine’s Day! Happy, happy Valentines Day!
Since I have class tonight, Freeman and I decided to do the Valentine’s thing last night. This was an interesting choice since I was leaving the gift buying thing until last minute, so I didn’t actually have a gift to give him. I had purchased a card over the weekend, so at least I had that.
He, on the other hand, had gone shopping for me! Whoohoo! I received a beautiful bouquet of dried flowers and a heart shaped block of very good aged cheese. Here’s a picture of the cheese after I had already cut into it…
It was very yummy!
To make up for the lack of “real” present I took Freeman out for dinner last night. We went to Bad Albert’s for Chicken Fried Steak, Garlic Mashed Potatoes and Gravy and Vegetables. It was super yummy!
Happy Valentine’s Day everyone
Friday, February 10, 2006
Everlasting love…
For some reason I have that song in my head, “This will be an everlasting love…” Could it have something to do with the sun rising and shining on the city at 7:30 in the morning? Could it have something do to with the lack of rain for a few days straight? Or, could it have something to do with the yummy egg, ham and tomato crumpet I’m nibbling on? Hmmm…any one of the above plus a hundred other things have all added up to a happy me.
The Crumpet Shop has become one of my favorite places to visit on Friday’s. There is something wonderful about walking down first ave in the early morning, the light just beginning to shine on the city and seeing the lights on at the shop. It’s owned by a family, at least it’s a family that runs the place, and they are super friendly and happy in the mornings. I’ve always been greeted with a smile and the wonderful smell of freshly brewed tea and crumpets when I open the door. I walk in, breath deeply, place my order and watch as the magic happens. I leave with a fresh breakfast, fresh coffee or tea and a feeling that everything is right with the world. The shop is like a little oasis of sanity and family. A wonderful way to start a Friday.
I was walking to my office from the Crumpet Shop, my nose too stuffed up to smell the city after a few days with out rain, and stood on a street corner in awe. The new buildings going up look majestic in the rising sun. The light playing off the glass and concrete, the sky blue and yellow behind the towers, the planes crossing the sky, humanity is amazing in all of our creations. It’s pretty cool so see the city rising around you.
Of course not so happy is the fact that I was sick for most of the week and now Freeman is sick. That’s very sad. I can almost breathe out of my nose again and I haven’t sneezed since yesterday, all very good signs. But Freeman went home sick yesterday morning and stayed home today. Sad.
This weekend will be all about wedding and homework. Though perhaps not in that order. I’m heading down to my mom’s tomorrow to get some planning started. Well, the planning that hasn’t already begun in my head. Because I’ve been doing a lot of planning in my head. But reality will hit tomorrow and then, then we shall see! And I have got to get my homework done. I’ve got an assignment due, one that I have been avoiding, one that I have been using any excuse not to complete! I HATE when that happens. But I have to get it done. It’s not part of the story, it isn’t a scene or something to move the plot along, it’s the synopsis. It’s basically a 3 to 5 page document detailing the story line at a high level. Aurgh. I so don’t want to do this! But I’ve put it off for as long as I can and if I want to get credit for it, I have to complete it. Gr.
I guess it’s back to work with me!
Thursday, February 09, 2006
No Longer Wondering
I’ve always wondered where women get the ideas for the hideous fashions they force upon their bridesmaids. Fluffy shoulders, ruffles galore, big butt bows. I found the web sites that explained it all.
I was searching for ideas on dresses, trying to get an idea of what I’d like to see and what my bridesmaids will be facing during their search. These are a few of the examples I ran into:
It’s a butterfly top, and it’s backless. I’ve seen belly dancers in this outfit, but never a bridesmaid…
I think the flame patterns, ruffles and liberal use of sparkly beads is what got me on these dresses.
I really like this picture because the girls look so comfortable and relaxed. I’m thinking of asking my friends to get the purple one…
Stripes? Really?
I think the green dress might be my all time favorite. The cut out on the bottom cleverly covered by lighter see through fabric is just wonderful.
No wonder women end up in such hideous dresses!
I can’t wait to see what I end up with!
As you wake in the morning
What do you feel?
Does a rush of happiness
wash over you when,
Suddenly, you realize you are alive?
