Friday, September 09, 2005
Out!
A lady was just leaving my floor and she couldn’t figure out that she needed to push, not pull the door and she said under her breath “Let me out!” in a kind of frantic panicked tone…
I thought - is it really that bad here?
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Thinking
I’ve been thinking a lot this week.
I’ve been thinking about my favorite time of the day and how lucky I am to have a favorite time of day. I love sitting on the bus, early in the morning, and watching the sun rise over the ship canal on my way to work. Watching the rowers, early boaters, work their way to where ever they are going. The sun rises, filling the sky with beautiful colors, shared of orange tinged with pink against the blue sky.
I’ve been avoiding the television, especially the news. It hurts, somewhere deep inside, it hurts my soul to know that thousands of people may be dead and hundreds of thousands have lost their homes. Regardless of what I feel about the government, the people in charge, the people who chose to stay, the people who couldn’t leave, none of that really matters. The enormousness of the tragedy fills my soul with a sadness that is hard to shake. But shake it I must, for life goes on regardless. It simply does. These tragedies are tests of our courage, our unshakable need as a country to stay alive and move on. As humans we are constantly tested, sometimes in little ways, sometimes in huge life shattering ways. We have to do what we have always done. Pick ourselves up and try to move on.
Knowing, of course, that it is okay to hurt, it is okay to grieve, and it is okay to feel the sadness that comes with any tragedy.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Sleepy…
I’m getting sleepy, very very sleepy, my eyes are beginning to drop, the lids are feeling heavy, oh so heavy, it’s hard to keep them open. Getting sleepier, and sleepier, my eyes are becoming unfocused, the room around me is beginning to blur, my head is getting heavy, my eyes continue to close, I can feel the tension in my arms give way as my mind lets go of the reality in front of me, sleepy, oh so sleepy, my head is getting heavier, heavier still, the room is very faded, my eyes almost closed, I lean forward to lay my head on my hand, it is so heavy, I’m not sure I can hold it up, so sleepy, my eyes are closed, my breathing stills, my head is so heavy on my hand, I’m so sleepy, so tired, so…
I Heart 3 Day Weekends!
Ever have one of “those” weekends? You know, where everything seemingly goes right and you just can’t explain why? I had one of “those” weekends. I accomplished so much, as well as slept a considerable amount. I still wish I had a few more days to work on the apartment, but we have plenty of time to work on getting things done. It’s coming together, though, feeling more and more like a home.
We got cable on Thursday! F and I are both very excited about it. He also got us a DVR; how we lived with out it I have no idea. It’s a wonderful feeling to record something and then skip through all of the commercials! We spent hours in front of the TV on Sunday, just basking in the glow of cable. It was wonderful.
We also hung up a few pictures. I have a couple more boxes to empty, but they are dwindling! Yeah us! I’m thinking a couple more weeks and we’ll be all done!
Monday was great. F’s family and my mom all went on a picnic together. We met up at Point Defiance and hung out for a few hours. F’s sister brought her two kids (three if you counter her husband 
) and they added entertainment. It was nice and relaxing. The weather was perfect and the crowds were missing (at least where we choose to hang out.) Traffic wasn’t terrible heading back into the city either. It was a fantastic weekend!
Not really ready to be back at work, but here I am! Time to get the day started!
As you wake in the morning
What do you feel?
Does a rush of happiness
wash over you when,
Suddenly, you realize you are alive?
