Friday, January 30, 2004
I never knew….
I never knew....I never knew I was such an expert on toys. Just because my cube is full of toys and odds and ends that people have given me, doesn't mean I know where they came from. But I in fact do know where to get some pretty cool toys.
I happen to have three wind up toys - one is not mine. It happens to be a giant nose that walks. I stuck it on top of my cube with my windup hopping lederhosen that I got for my birthday. A lady in my office happened by to ask where the nose came from. It came from one of my co-workers who thought it would be funny to put the nose directly behind the lederhosen. Really - don't ask. So - the nose has been there ever since.
Anyway - she asked me where it came from. And I just happen to know a store downtown that sells nothing but wind-up toys. Including nun-zilla. Really.
Then I thought - what kind of a person am I to know the location of a windup store? Does that make me strange in some way I don't want to know about???
Thursday, January 29, 2004
I have started several times
I have started several times to blog something, but every time I start I fall into this "everything is bad" kind of mentality. And I really don't want to blog about all the crazy unhappy crap that has been going on. There are tons of really good things that have been happening, and I have been focusing on the bad. So - on with the good!I tried to take my Xterra in yesterday to get the oil changed. All the entrances were blocked and that really sucked. So I didn't get it dropped off. I called them to let them know and they said if someone could bring it in... they would take care of it. So Mom, being the awesome, wonderful person that she is, took it in for me! And they fixed it! YEAH! Oil was changed, steering wheel issues were resolved, seat was re-covered. (the fabric had come lose and Freeman cut his hand on the seat Ouch!) And they did it all for FREE! YEAH!
So I took Freeman out for dinner.
We went to Casa Mia, yummy... we ordered a pizza and drank a bottle of wine. I love the Merlot that they serve there. It is so yummy. I never have any issues drinking it - which can be an issue if you are driving... We have left over pizza for lunch today. MMMmmm makes me hungry just thinking about it.
Hey - I finally found out what my group is supposed to be doing "Provides project management and functional analysists for all major HR projects, leveraging product methodology and HR systems expertise" I think that would have been good for me to know a few months ago!
Monday, January 26, 2004
Monday…
Monday...First off I have to say thanks to everyone who has sent notes about my kitty. Not everyone had a chance to meet her, but all of you know how much I loved having her around. And I appreciate all the kind words and condolences.
I'm doing better today. But then I am not in my apartment where it is so quiet... I figure it will just take time, and books, and TV and the stereo and any other thing I can use to distract me from the fact that she isn't there. :(
Otherwise, things are really good. Freeman has been ultra nice about all of this and very VERY helpful. There is no way I would have been able to deal with this on my own. He and my mother have been vital to my mental stability. They both provide excellent distractions on a regular basis.
As to the question of another kitty... Not any time soon. With all the changes coming up my life, I can't see adding another life to take care of. I was willing to do what it took to keep Frankley with me, but with the moving around, I can't get another one yet. Maybe in 6 months. Maybe in a year. I have to wait and see where I end up. I have a feeling the next 6 months will bring major changes in my life. And not just the ones I am expecting...
Sunday, January 25, 2004
Ouch.
Ouch.I had to put Frankley to sleep yesterday.
I can honestly say that it was the hardest thing I have ever done.
She was my only companion for so long... I always felt like we were two peas in the same pod, meant to be together.
I don't know if you are supposed to feel that way about your cat, but I did. And I miss her terribly.
The apartment feels so empty. And it breaks my heart every time I open the door and she isn't waiting there to greet me. I don't think I had realized how much of an impact she made on my life. But now I really know this place is to big. I feel lost here. Maybe I just feel lost in general.
I don't understand why I had to lose her.
Life sucks.
I wish I could be more positive, but at this moment I really can't. At this moment I just hurt. And I miss her.
Monday, January 19, 2004
Monday - some people call it a Holiday.
Monday - some people call it a Holiday.But not me.
I'm at work. There are lots of people here today, though not a full crowd which is nice. But the people who are here are being a little loud, only because it is so quiet.
I'm annoyed. I was expecting feedback on something and never got it. I was supposed to have it Friday before I left and never got it. What I am working on will go into user testing tomorrow, and it isn't finalized. I don't have buy off from any of the important people I need buy off from. What kind of crap is this?
I know what kind of crap it is. It is called "Training" I am on the "Training" team, the one thing that everyone is ignoring in hopes that it may just disappear forever... And it happens to be one of the most important things to do for this project. Because without training, no one can do what they are supposed to do.
Anyway - I do have work to do. I have budget stuff to update and other deliverables to check on. I just wish I could put this one part down and not pick it back up! I am also hoping that they don't demand changes and expect us to be able to turn them around before training begins tomorrow morning! (they will because they are all smoking crack. And we will try to get them in and updated because we are all smoking crack too...)
Back to work...
As you wake in the morning
What do you feel?
Does a rush of happiness
wash over you when,
Suddenly, you realize you are alive?
