Wednesday, September 05, 2007

10 Down - can we make it an even dozen?

I got rejection number 10 today, officially number 10.  I knew it was coming as the requisition was closed on Tuesday when I got back into work.  But hearing it for sure from the recruiter was a bit of a blow. 
When I really think about it, I was kind of counting on this one.  They had me interview with three different groups, really lengthy interviews too.  The recruiter had called my boss for more information about me.  And though he recounted the conversation, and he said some not very good things about me, I still thought I had it.  I am, after all, more than qualified for what they wanted.
I didn’t get it though. 
I am trying really hard to be positive about the situation.  More opportunities will come, hopefully better ones.  But...it’s really hard to be positive with a constant string of rejection.  Especially with the way my manager is treating me at work - like I have personally wronged him.  Like changing my mind was a dagger in his back (after working many, many hours of OT to get the work done with little to no recognition from him, I probably should have stabbed him in the back...) I have continued to work hard, not complaining that I get nothing but shit work to do.  Not complaining that Tiny, who has no idea what he is doing, keeps getting touted as a great PM.  Attempting to keep my chin up by thinking it won’t last too much longer…
But with my own manager saying not so nice things about me...I’m not sure that I will ever get out.